Late night grazing...refocus as I approach my 1 year.

Apr 21, 2011

The last few weeks I started constantly grazing late at night following dinner.  Healthy snacks but non-stop.  I was feeling depressed about it and came to some realizations.  The most important was that I secretly still worry about failure in this process and on some level sabotage myself because I believe that ultimately failure is inevitable.  I say this also knowing that is how I feel for brief moments in time and that dark days come to us all.  I believe that I am a positive person 90% of the time but need to learn how to handle the other 10% and get beyond it without lingering or causing damage. 

I know that I was very focused on my health the first 8 - 9 months and while I am still making sure to eat healthy food and get in my exercise I stopped focusing on learning, improving and striving.  I decided to own my behavior yesterday.  No grazing tonight and surprisingly it was not difficult and I am not hungry.  I am reading, reflecting and growing.  Time to focus again and set some new goals. 

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