PoppyAnn
My Journey
Jan 18, 2012
At my biggest I was 400 pounds. I was able to lose 100 of it, but then stalled out for the last 5 years. I have Rheumatoid and Osteoarthritis and Fibromyalgia. and it has all but stopped me from doing anything. At 38 I had my first total knee replacement and a year later the other knee was done. A year after the knees I had to have back and neck surgery and still have one more back and neck surgery to go.I am a big girl because I just stopped caring. After childhood abuse that lasted till I was 17. Then if that was not enough after 8 years of marriage my husband went to prison. I was four months pregnant with our 5th child at the time and our only son. I have been a prison wife for 16 years now and that's when it all started. I decided I was not worth anything and ate my problems away. When we married I weighed 125, after our fourth child I weighed 189. I thought I was the fattest cow in the world at that size. I wish now that I would have stopped the down word spiral.
That was then and after all tomorrow is another day ( Thanks Katy Scarlett O'Hara for that saying). Now I am taking an active approach to this. I really wanted to do it all on my own, but I have finally been able to accept that I need help. I am going for gastric bypass in the next 3 months and could not be happier with my choice.
I want to live to be as old as my Granny who is 89 and going strong. I am lucky that All I have is the arthritis and high blood pressure. I love life my husband, children and grandchildren, but I am doing this for me. For the first time in my life I am putting me first. I have to in order to enjoy everything else life brings along.
