Bad day :(

Mar 04, 2014

Today hasn't been so peachy. My joints have hurt pretty much all evening. I've had an upset stomach since about 3, I've had to make myself eat, I haven't felt like eating anything. I find myself wanting my surgery more than ever tonight. I just can't wait to feel better, health wise and look wise. I went out this morning and all I kept doing in every store was looking at myself in mirrors and just saying how much i hate the way i look. I can't wait until I look at my reflection and actually smile. I just can't wait to close this chapter in my life and start a new one. It all begins with my surgery. But, I've dealt with this crap for 19 years, waiting three months for it all to be over isn't too bad. Hopefully, three months that is. I haven't gotten my surgery date yet but if all goes according to plan, I've added up it should be around June or July. So, I'm hoping for then. I can't wait to see where I'll be by my 20th birthday in 9 months. I'm hoping to have made a drastic change before then. But, we'll see. Until then, I'm hanging in there. Hope everyone else is doing good and hope all the ones who had surgery today are doing great and complication free! :)

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