Musicmama88
Im actually dreading this holiday!
Nov 24, 2009
Not because of cooking or cleaning or family coming,,but because I know Im going to eat,,and probably gain some weight. That depresses me, because I feel like a weakling and a WLS failure. I have gained 20 pounds and hate every one of em. I have two closets of clothes that no longer fit,,and when I try em on its just a couple inches that is stopping me from wearing them and that frustrates me.Im lazy when it comes to exercise...but I have this mental block that tells me that I cannot lose weight now because of my age..62. And part of me says why bother,,be a great grandma and relax..nobody cares anyway. Do I sound depressed?? Well,,I am, in this area.
My daughter is going to school to be a personal trainer and she told me to just be careful through the holidays but to enjoy them,,and then on Jan 2nd hit the basics hard and get back on track. I think thats what I will do. I will accumulate a pantry full of protein shakes and tuna and canned chicken and cases of water and such,,and start my walking again. I have to...I cant take this feeling of failure. Ill start journaling too,,keeping track. Maybe I will make Easter a goal date,,to wear those clothes in the closet that I havent worn in a year.
Anyway,,whatever,,I know I have the tool,,I still get sick on certain foods and dump occasionally. So, its up to me to face the reality that I gotta do this,,nobody else can do it for me.
So, Ill bite the bullet,,(and a lot of other stuff,),Ill fillup on protein and only leave a little room for the carbs and treats,,,I hope. Oh well,,this too shall pass,,,,
Happy Holidays everyone!
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Danville, IN
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09/14/2005
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Apr 01, 2005
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Before & After
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August 2005
325 poundslbs
April 2006
222 poundslbs
