littled
home from the Caribbean
Feb 22, 2010
I am back from my exciting Caribbean cruise... Aruba, Grenada, St. Thomas, Dominica, and Antilles. It was Valentines and my birthday. Great present!At least most of it was exciting. Except for being out of breath all the time, sweating like a roasting pig on a spit, sunburning to a crisp, and of course cursing every skinny skank in a bikini! LOL My honey kept saying, don't worry, soon you will be there too, but for now I hate everyone of them! Their perfect bodies, bouncing around like they don't have a care in the world. I secretly hoped they would all get pregnant and gain so much that their stretch marks end at the toes they can no longer see either! That will learn em!!! (However this doesn't apply to anyone who has had wl surgery. I love all you guys!)
I am awful, I shouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. Just the green eyed monster has me and I am so damn tired and miserable of this body I lug around. But on Friday I go for my last apt before surgery on March 15. So even though I may be old at least I could be healthy? I hope. No bikinis in my future, no one would want to ever see that! But maybe a nice one piece? In the dark?
It certainly did make me realize what I am missing in life, I can hardly do anything anymore, my weight is holding me down so much. When we were in the ocean I felt so weightless, nothing hurt, etc. As soon as we came out of the water to the beach, my whole body felt like I had instantly put on a hundred pounds. It almost brought me to my knees like someone had loaded wet cement on my back. I wondered if I will feel that "light" when I lose the weight? It would be a miracle. Anyway enough complaints, can't "weight" to get to the bench. Hope it has sturdy legs, there is a lot of me to hold up!
