18 Days to go

Jan 20, 2012

Ok ... so I have to admit - the nerves are kicking in

Starting my pre-op diet next Wednesday which is also the day that I go in for the Pre-Admission Testing.

I think that I am more nervous because I have so much starting to happen simultaneously. I took my mom for Diagnostic Screening after an "iffy" Mammogram and next she is going in for an open biopsy. She goes for Pre-op testing on Tuesday afternoon and her surgey in on Friday (yes, they want this done asap).

I keep thinking to myself, what IF something is really wrong with my mom? How am I supposed to take care of her when I NEED to take care of MYSELF. I had been taking care of my mother since I was 10 yrs old, I just moved away from home 2 years ago and still I only live a few blocks away. (my mom was soooo pissed when "I left her")

I decided 2 years ago that it was time to live my life and most recently I decided that I need to take care of me! I can't let myself fall by the wayside again - its not an option
Does that make me a terrible person or just someone easy to guilt trip?

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