Motivation

Mar 22, 2011

Motivation....it is something that I personally think about every single day.  What motivates me?  What do I need to become more motivated?  Why are my goals...are they motivation?  And what things keep me from being motivated?
My #1 motivation is my SON!  He is 7 years old and as a single mother I want to be healthy, active, and a part of his life for a very long time.  I want to be able to go to amazement parks....and fit in the rides LOL.  I want to be able to run and play with  him at the park without feeling like I am going to pass out.  I want to be able to go to the beach and sit in the sun without feeling like a beached whale.
My #2 motivation is my career.  I work in the legal field and while you wouldn't think that the legal field would really care what a person looks like....that is so not the case.  I work for a very young law firm and the attorney's are beautiful, stylish, hip, trendy individuals.  They run their firm based on the fact that they are so young and are doing great things. They are in the media spotlight everyday.  And while I am not an attorney and no where near the media I do meet with clients.  And I don't want them to get their first impression of our firm from an overweight frumpy paralegal....because that simply is not who the firm is or who I am for that matter.  I want to be able to wear heels, business suits, cute little dresses, business professional outfits and feel comfortable knowing that I am professional and look good.  Now I wear baggy clothes, frumpy jackets, no color, and I usually don't even think about putting on make-up.  Getting out of that "funk" is my motivation #2.
My motivation #3 is getting married!  I know getting married shouldn't be a motivation seeing that I am NOT engaged, or even close to getting engaged...or even finding someone to marry me but I hope that this transformation will help me come out of my shell, realize that I deserve good things and be able to find a good, hardworking man that is ready to settle down and get married one day.  I want to be able to wear a fitted wedding dress, and be the beautiful bride that all brides want to be on their wedding day.

Being healthy is an overall motivational factor for me but honestly when I had surgery I didn't have any health issues.  I wasn't on any medications, I was as healthy as a person weighting 301 pounds could be thankfully.  I want that healthiness to not only to continue but to get better and better with time.  I can also honestly say that the day of surgery I cried because I KNEW I had made the wrong decision.  The 2-3 weeks after surgery the pain was so terrible that I KNEW I had made the worse decision of my life.  And I KNEW that I did something I was going to regret forever.  I am happy to say that today I KNOW that I made the right decision for me.  Things have been rough, it has not been a walk in the park, but I made the right decision.  No regrets, no remorse.     Happy Wednesday!!!

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