My Angel

Jan 17, 2011

Size 16!!!!  What???  I have not seen that size since I was in high school.  It was such a crazy and amazing feeling to slide that pair of jeans up my legs and have no problem whatsoever getting them buttoned.  Is this really me?  The answer is yes!  Even in the most of difficult of times, and my time since surgery has been tested on every emotional level, I am doing remarkably well with my weight loss.  To fully understand my obstacles I have to explain that I have always been an stress eater.  You could always tell when I was stressed because I would likely have the bag of chips and some other unhealthy foods near by.  My father passed away a little over a week ago and the days leading up to his passing were very difficult.  I did not always have healthy food choices around me but I worked hard at staying focused and making sure I had something in me.  Did I always do the right thing right?  Absolutely not, but that is what this personal journey is about.  I don't want to just lose weight, I want to change my eating patterns and how I handle stress.  I need to know in times of stress there are other alternatives then the bag of chips.  Proteins keep me nourished and full but most importantly they provide my alternative to the bag of Lay's.  Prior to my father's passing he would look at me and say, "I can't believe how much weight you lost."  His eyes would shine and I could see how proud he was in his eyes.  My father was always my biggest cheerleader and she never expressed disappointment in me or my wight gain.  He just wanted me to be healthy.  I am glad he as able to take part in my success.  He knew that I no longer had to take diabetes or cholesterol medication.  He knew I no longer had to use my cpap.  My father has been my personal angel, and the fact he saw me a in a size 16 is alright by me! 

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