elongreach
Where Has Time Gone?
Jul 03, 2010
You know, I haven't really been nervous or anything about my pending surgery. I've been telling everyone, 'ask me in two weeks'. However, today, I went to check my calendar for my next payday (yay) and then I saw it. One. Two weeks down. There is my surgery date. At that moment it really clicked for me. Oh my goodness. I'm having surgery. Major surgery. I'm letting someone cut open my insides and rearrange them.As I'm writing this, a little panic set in. Let rest.
Ok, I'm back.
So now it's hit me that the time is really really here. In 16 days, I'll be getting wheeled down some hall into an operating room. It makes me wonder am I ready? I mean really ready. I've done research, reviewed, and read books. I've spent the last 3 months ordering protein samples and supplies. So the physical stuff is done.
But what about the emotional?
You can plan as much as you want for this moment, but nothing will change your mindset. I've read thousands of posts about 'I don't know if I'm doing the right thing', but now two weeks before surgery I can finally say I'm at that point. Questioning the what ifs. The what ifs are starting to consume my brain as I continue this little thought process. However, the what ifs haven't deterred me from calling up my surgeon and telling him this isn't going to happen.
I have to have faith in my decision and myself. This is right for me. This is the right time for me.
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About Me
Owings Mills, MD
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Surgery
07/21/2010
Surgery Date
Mar 12, 2010
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