11 months out

Sep 23, 2010

well it is has been a little while since I blogged.  I am now 11 months post op.  I have been getting complaments everywhere and it is so nice for people to stop me and tell me that I look great and that they can't believe I still need to lose anymore.  I still am huge and I am finding myself going back into my old habits of eating too much.  i was eating a thin crust pizza which I usually can only eat a slice or two of the small cut pizza, yesterday before I knew it I had ate almost half of the pizza.  I don't want to go back into the old habit and I want to continue to stop when I feel full.  I am enjoying my new look and I am enjoying how I am feeling  My dr. wants me to lose about 30 more pounds by our 1 year visit.  I am so afraid that I want lose it.  I have not lost one pound this month, I have not gain but I have not lost anything.  I need to get this weight off and more imporatly I need to keep it off.  Oh well, I need to get back on track   I am still loving the way I look in my clothes.  I still want to be down in a size 14 and I am now in a 18 and a few 16s.  I will make it.  I also have a little more courage.  I am stepping out and trying to apply for different jobs and head up the offices costume party.  Before I could not find any costums and when we had hawaii day I could not fit in the grass skirts and my boss purchased a few plus size shirts and I had to attached 2 of them together to make one skirt for me. Now, I am looking forward to all these events.  Please don't let me gain any of this weight back and let me finally get to the 100s

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