I look fat

Nov 19, 2010

Yeah, my self esteem has gone down the tube. I've been exercising at least 5x/week for an hour or more- hardcore stair stepping, bike riding, etc etc. This week, I've added calorie counting (1800 net cals, which is just barely enough to keep me from being hungry if I chose my food carefully, but its ok). And how much weight have I lost? "The big goose egg" as my Torts professor would say. Really? Over 20 additional hours of exercise, and tracking all those additional calories, and I don't have shit to show for it. My clothes don't even fit any better. my stomach is still huge.

I feel so trapped. helplessly trapped. I don't know what to try next, but I am really not okay with where I am now.

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