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4 days into the Pre-op diet: Physical & Emotional Wellbeing
Jan 20, 2014
I started the pre-op diet last Thursday and today is Monday: it feels a lot longer than just 4 days. I've been all over the place with how I feel both emotionally and physically, with my food cravings, with just about anything related to food. I knew the mind stuff was going to be the hardest - I'm an addict. I've rationalized little cheats here and there but I haven't given in to my appetite entirely. For the most part I'm keeping to the high protein, low card diet. I can do better with my liquids I'm not consistently getting in 8 glasses a day and I'm stretching the boundaries with snacking on high protein stuff like hummus and celery, dried soy beans and jerky. Today I gave into an extra protein bar and 2 weight watcher cookies yesterday. My mind is telling me that these actions aren't good indicators of future success - that's why I'm blogging about it. If I verbalize it then it's more real and I MUST acknowledge and act on these self defeating behaviors. GET IT TOGETHER GIRL!
They tell you in the prep classes I had to take for the surgery to make small, realistic and achievable goals; don't let a set back derail you from your goal and know they self - "Hi, my name is Lina and I'm a food addict. I don't want food to control me anymore, I want to be leaner, healthier and sexier - even though I've never met that person I know she's somewhere in me just waiting to see the light of day." So my goal starting in the next minute and for the rest of today (taking it minute by minute, hour by hour) is to get up out of this chair, finish my household chores, telework for a couple of hours, pick up my hubby, have a protein drink together, go to diabetes class, exercise for at least an hour, come home have my evening snack, take my meds and go to bed. Remember girl - you play your cards right and it could mean no more diabetes, no more related meds and all the cute clothes you can afford.
Physical wellbeing: I'm on an insulin pump but surprisingly haven't had to cut back too much. I've reduced my insulin intake by 25% and have had 3 lows where i've broken out in a cold sweat and just felt incapable of really moving. Probably 3 others where I've felt a low coming and have addressed it relatively quickly. Hmm... that could be why I've been so up and down emotionally - I'll have to monitor that more closely.Started weight resistance training yesterday as all the posts I've seen mention weight lifting as a means to help reduce the amount of excess flesh. Today is lower body workout but I'm having bad back spasms so I'm not sure I'm going to lift weights today, may just go with Cardio. In addition to the back spasms I feel very bloated today, I wonder if that's the protein? It's very uncomfortable. The past 4 days I've had low energy, I'm not an active person physically but mentally my mind races from early morning to afternoon. I'm relatively alert if perhaps a bit ADD. As you can tell I'm a morning person, I like being a morning person, it's what I know - my peak productive time is about 8 hours and then a gradual decline over the afternoon and a sharp decline in the evening but the last 4 days I barely peak and feel really whipped midday to about early evening where I'll get a brief second wind. It's weird and throwing me off, I hope it's not indicative of the next 4-6 weeks while I'm on the liquid/mushy diet.
The little voice in my head is saying your life is about to change in a very big way girl, be prepared for whatever comes!
